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Hi Jia,

I hope you’re doing well.

I’ve created this website to communicate my thoughts and express my deepest affection for you, without reaching out. I knew you needed space, and I respected that. I didn’t know what to do, but I knew I couldn’t sit and do nothing.

I went to the Korean Consulate Sydney on Fri, Aug 14, to apply for my visa. I started to learn more about your culture and had the whole trip planned for Sep 20 – Sep 25. I have 2 plane tickets and separate hotel rooms booked.

Now, I want to open up.

You know, true love isn’t easy, and easy love isn’t true. The whole idea, that you find the right person, it just flows, and if it’s hard, it means it’s wrong, this idea is inherently not true. People leave when it gets hard.

But deep stuff is hard by definition. Because it requires you to actually change sometimes, or to admit something about yourself you didn’t recognise before. I’m not saying pain is the goal, but if it’s never been difficult, it’s probably never been real.

Before a person walks away, they should remember how you once made them feel, or you still do, and ask themself — are the feelings really gone? Or you’re just both hurt, tired, and forgetting what brought you together in the first place?

The effort can always return.

A relationship becomes stronger when 2 people realise that love isn’t perfection. There will be mistakes, there will be difficult conversations, and there will be moments of silence. But when both people choose patience instead of distance, their bond grows deeper. And maturing is realising that none of us will be easy to be with, it’s about who’s willing to stay committed understanding you and actually wants to grow with you.

It’s clear that we have problems. We’re communicating, but not always connecting. Feelings exist, but neither of us feels truly heard or understood. We miss how things used to feel. And a break up won’t solve the problem. The solution is maybe not the ending of things, but honesty and accountability. We never had the chance to talk about what we expect from our partners. And I suggest this is where we start. I take accountability for my actions.

Every relationship is confusing sometimes. It’s an unavoidable part of intimacy. The right person will not heal your wounds, they’ll expose them first, and you’ll get the chance to heal them together. Security is something you build together. You will have to teach each other.

Teach me how to be the right man for you.

If someone keeps coming back, and you love each other hard enough to keep forgetting the mistakes and solving issues together, maybe you were really meant for each other. Affection is always greater than perfection. And a true relationship is 2 imperfect people refusing to give up on each other.

I don’t want to find “better”, I want us to be better. Let’s make it work. My offer stays the same. New rules, new changes, 2 tickets, 2 different hotel rooms, starting over. Learning each other’s culture which is beautiful and exciting. Respecting each other. Building the life together based on love and understanding.

I’ve been thinking a lot about everything that happened, and I’d really love to talk when you’re ready. I can’t undo the past, but I can work on our future.

I wasn’t the best version of myself, but I still loved you deeply. Let’s forgive each other and trust each other as we always did. It’s time to break the pattern and do some homework, not to deny feelings.

You maybe wanted me to reach out, and in the end I did it, but still it didn’t feel right for you. I know that. And I know I hurt you, and I carry the weight of it every day. But let me give you a big hug and help you heal. And let us build a life together that we wanted. That we will both protect. I’ve shared my plans for you. Don’t forget about them baby.

I miss you. We should never have had uncomfortable conversations over text. We are not okay now, and we both hurt each other, but I am here, and we can figure it out together.

I am ready when you ready. Take your time. I do hear you baby. And I want to understand you.